by Rosita Hernandez
Since I can’t be here to tell you myself, I’ve written this to tell you that God is greater than the devil and can make us strong. My life is a testimony to God’s greatness.
I was the youngest child of a large family. We moved to New York from Puerto Rico when I was five years old. Our home was full of anger, violence and shame. When I was a teenager, my mother had the court put me away in a juvenile home for girls. When I walked over to her in the court to kiss her goodbye, she slapped me in the face. I felt so alone
My growing up years had a great influence on my drug addiction. You see, I didn’t want to cry and hurt anymore. When you first start using drugs, Satan makes you think it’s a fast road out of pain and hurt into a great high where nothing matters anymore. What you don’t know is that drugs are really more pain, and they destroy you. Guilt and shame overwhelmed me, and I got so I didn’t care if I lived or died. I moved into the fast lane of prostitution and addiction, and was in and out of jail. I lost all sight of any way out.
But it all caught up to me. I started getting sick and going in and out of hospitals. Then the bad news came of me testing HIV+. I didn’t know what to do. I had wanted to die for so long now, all of the sudden, I didn’t want to die anymore.
While I was in the hospital, I met a lady named Beth who God must have sent to me. She came to see me all the time and spoke to me about the new life that Jesus had for me. Somehow, Beth had a confidence that I wished I had. She said it was faith and that God had given it to her.
The devil had filled my heart with hopelessness, but God had filled hers with a faith and hope that was greater. With Jesus in her heart, she could see me as a child of God with the chance for a new life. I received Jesus into my heart and started to pray, and I wasn’t so scared anymore. The Bible says, “God’s love casts out all fear.” Beth told me that peace would come to me and it did. I enjoyed praying. And I felt better than I had felt in a long time.
God has taken me and made me His! I know now that I can die in peace because He has taken all my sins and guilt. No doctor in the world could ever take away the pain that I had. It had to be Him.
If you are in distress and the pain and the emptiness just won’t go away, reach out for Jesus and He will make a difference in your life. Just when you think things can’t get any worse, He will comfort you. And when you think you are dying, he will pick you up. He did it for me.
It’s been eight years since I was tested with HIV. He has held me together and now I have enough faith to believe that only He can take me when He wants to, not any disease. I know I’ll be in heaven with Jesus, and my friends and family will be with me too.
All the agony and hurt I felt for so long has been slowly disappearing. When you’re the walking dead, you can’t heal inside. I never lived until I met Jesus, and He never left me alone.
Galatians 2:20 says, “I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.”
Jesus has given me hope, let me feel love, and most of all, He has given me life.
April 14, 1945 – May 5, 1992
Rosita went to be with the Lord on May 5, 1992, surrounded by those who loved her, and in the presence of God. The following verses tell of the hope that lived in her heart and that is freely available to all who will believe.
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1:9
Yet to all who received him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God. John 1:12
Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth an the life. No one comes to the father except through me… In my Father’s house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. …I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am.” John 14:6, 2, and 3b